Wishing, Always Wishing

Don't know where to turn or who to be around you.

Knowing its stupid to be mad,

Can't help but be furious with you.

Can't shake the feeling this won't last.

Stay and fight?

OR turn and walk away?
Wishing, always wishing to just live in that safe haven.

To be Alice in Wonderland.

To be anyone in some far away fairy tale land.

As long as its far away from this reality,

Then, maybe then,

Just maybe Freedom can finally come.

Confusion replaced with certainty.

Nothing but knowing where belonging is for this traveler of confusion.

Wishing always wishing for one thing,

To just know what life means.

Don't even have to know what it brings.

Furious and frustrated maybe there was no right.

Maybe just maybe you were the one who was wrong.

Ever think of that?

Never do.

Happiness Nevermore

The loving hopeless romantic of an optimistic heart,

That once was.

Has now become the broken life,

Of an untrusting cynic heart.

Turned to stone by the pain,

Reflected in the eyes of the storm.

Just starting rain once long ago.

Now turned to a hurricane,

By the shattered soul upon the floor.

The wreckage the only relief for the misery.

Joy only a scene in a movie of the past.

Never to be relived.

Only witnessed on the moving picture screen.

Happiness nevermore.