Entrapment

Chockchain collar as if I am some run away dog.

Watching my every move like I am a four year old child.

Never letting me do anything.

No trust,

No love,

No freedom.

Gotta control every aspect of my life.

Expecting me to ask how high,

When you say jump.

What you don't understand is that?

I don't take orders very well.

I am not a puppet you can control.

I am a human being.

And its time you started treating me like the adult you expect of me.

That I will soon be.

Do you want me to get pregnant at 16?

Do you want me to be a druggie?

An alcoholioc?

No, I don't think you do.

That would show how bad a parent you really are,

And you don't want that

So stop trying to control me.

Let ME live my life.

Cinderella

Nice to
know I mean so little to you.

Nice to
know you love me.

Nice to
know you care.

Nice to
know that the one day I'm not taking care of YOUR child you can't give me a
little freedom.

You say I
don't care where as all you care about is treating me like a
slave.

No I
didn't do a percfect job playing Cinderella.

But news
flash!

I'm not
Cinderella.

And I sure
as hell am not perfect.

Not even
close.

It's
called being alive,

Being
real.

Nothing on
God's green Earth is perfect.

Everything
has its faults.

That's
just the way it is.

You want
perfect?

Go find a
robot to be your slave.

This
Cinderella's on strike.

Finding my
Fairy Godmother.

Breaking
Free.

Out to
find an ending I deserve.

Not That Kind of Girl

Guys seem to think I'm this heartbreaking horror.

Yeah,

I tend to be a tease.

Yeah,

I hate jealous people.

Yeah,

I'm vengeful.

But I'm not the kind of girl to hurt you on purpose.

I'm not the kind of girl to use you to get even.

If I get revenge you won't be used as part of it.

I find other ways to get even.

If I flirt with you just role with it,

That's just who I am.

If i tell you I like you I mean it.

If I tell you I love you it's sincere.

I don't break hearts for fun.

I'm just a selfish free spirit.

If I do something crazy and flirtatious its not to impress you,

I do it because I know I can.

If you get hurt it's not my fault.

I warned you it happens when people fall for me.

Cocky I know but it's unfortunately true.

Don't say I didn't warn you.

Surreal

It is odd...

How life can go from good to bad in a second,

And Vice Versa.

It almost seems impossible,

For it to change the way it does,

How one minute everyone is in love.

Then the next everyone is breaking up and in pain.

Yet time heals the wounds.

And even though at first you feel like you can't survive without them.

Little by little the pain goes away.

You will always love them,

True.

But you won't always be slave to the pain that was caused by them.

It takes a while,

But sooner than you think.

After you give up trying,

Love tends to find you,

And fix your broken heart.

LIFE IS SURREAL IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE.

But that's the magic at work.

Beaking things it has fixed.

And fixing things it has broken.

Broken Christmas

Broken heart.

Shattered hope.

Crushed dreams.

All I wanted for Christmas was a real Cristmas.

Like what you see in the movies.

Where the family is happy and having a wonderful day.

Is that what I get?

HA!

I Wish.

No.

Instead I get fighting parents and crushed hope.

Why,

Why can't I have one good holiday?

Does Santa hate me that much?

I mean I've been good all year yet my holidays make me want to cry,

They are always so horrible.

Maybe it's God who hates me.

Or maybe there isn't a God at all.

Or maybe this is supposed to make me stronger.

Who knows?

All I know is that I can only handle so many broken Christmas'.

Demons

Demons.

Everybody's got at least one.

Some too many to count.

Horrid pasts.

Worst presents.

Scared to even imagine a future.

Fighting,

Verbal and physical,

Lying,

Yelling,

Broken hearts and open wounds.

Demons everywhere you look,

Everywhere you go.

When it all comes down to it can you face them?

If you face them can you defeat them?

If you do great.

Thn what?

Whose to say more won't come find you?

Whose to say the new ones won't be worst than the first?

Like I said they are everywhere.

Nightmare

Life is a nightmare when...

You are scared to leave your bedroom,

Your safe haven because they came home,

When you hear them yelling and think oh no not again,

When you wonder what will happen to your family,

When you fear you will lose your mom or your dad,

When you don't even want to get up in the morning,

When you've dealt with so much pain and suffering that you cant even trust your best friend,

When you wear a smile on the outside,

When inside all you want is for the pain to end,

When you don't even know how to love,

When your whole life has been one big secret,

When you've cried so much you wonder if there are even tears left to cry,

When all you want is to end everything,

Life is a nightmare when you wake up to find you're still in hell.

A true living nightmare.