Fight

People have always told me that I am a strong girl, though part of me has always known it, I never truly believed them. It wasn't because I thought they were lying or just trying to calm me down. No, it was something completely different, something I didn't realize until now. I couldn't believe them because I was blinded by feeling. I felt weak, I thought that because I felt weak I was. That it made me this weak scared little girl. I was wrong. Yes, I admit it I am scared of a lot of things. I feel like wuss who can't do anything but break down and cry, a pansy ass, worthless, little nobody. I don't know things about myself, my life or even my future. That's the point though, of life, I mean. It was never meant to be easy and that's what makes us feel weak isn't it? When we don't know whats to come and everything seems to knock us to our knees and keep us there. Life was meant to be worth the fight and it is even though we don't always see it. I am not weak because I am scared, hurt and broken. I am just the opposite. I am strong because I know how to face my fears and no matter what happens how to keep fighting. I can handle anything life throws at me because I stay and fight. Though I melt down in the moment and feel like giving up I won't. I refuse to check out of this life until my time on Earth is over. When life knocks me down, no matter how far I fall, I pick myself, dust myself off, and try again. I stand and fight and nothing in this world can stop me from being the woman I am meant to be and right there is my strength: The fight within.

Fight the Monster within

Can I trust you?

You who deceived me.

Me the innocent child.

Child of yours, never.

Never have I been yours to claim.

Claim the demon within.

Within yourself.

Can I give you forgiveness?
Forgiveness for betraying my trust.

Trust you never should have earned.

Earn the life you have taken from me.

Me, I survived your cruelty.

Cruelty of your black heart.

Heart turned to a black hole.

Can I love a traitor?

Traitors receive the death penalty.

Penalties are there to protect.

Protection is what I gave myself.

Myself is the one person I can trust.

Trust is not something I can give.

Give to anyone because of you.

You who has turned me into this.

This unforgiving monster.

Monster of a being.

Being that must be destroyed.

Can I fight the monster you've created of me?

Worth the Fight

Hearts can break,

Souls can crumble,

Lives fall apart,

In the blink of an eye everything can be turned upside down.

Just as fast as your world shatters,

Someone could always come and save you.

Life is full of undesirable things.

The only way to deal is to dive in head first and fight.

Fight for not only your life but the things that matter the most to you.

When life brings you to your knees,

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try again.

Blame yourself for your failures,

You refuse to try.

Life wasn't meant to be easy,

It is a fight.

Isn't it worth it?

Choices

How do I do this?

Make such a huge decision?

Stay and be an adult?

Live on my own.

By my own rules.

A dream come true or is it?

Am I really ready for this?
Or am I just a kid playing dress up in mommy's clothes?

Can I really do this?

Or will trying kill me?

Do I try?

Or go with them?

Which adventure is worth my while?

Which path has the Goddess chosen for me?
If only it weren't such a blur.

How will I know what the right choice is?

Stay?

OR admit defeat and go?

Wishing, Always Wishing

Don't know where to turn or who to be around you.

Knowing its stupid to be mad,

Can't help but be furious with you.

Can't shake the feeling this won't last.

Stay and fight?

OR turn and walk away?
Wishing, always wishing to just live in that safe haven.

To be Alice in Wonderland.

To be anyone in some far away fairy tale land.

As long as its far away from this reality,

Then, maybe then,

Just maybe Freedom can finally come.

Confusion replaced with certainty.

Nothing but knowing where belonging is for this traveler of confusion.

Wishing always wishing for one thing,

To just know what life means.

Don't even have to know what it brings.

Furious and frustrated maybe there was no right.

Maybe just maybe you were the one who was wrong.

Ever think of that?

Never do.

Happiness Nevermore

The loving hopeless romantic of an optimistic heart,

That once was.

Has now become the broken life,

Of an untrusting cynic heart.

Turned to stone by the pain,

Reflected in the eyes of the storm.

Just starting rain once long ago.

Now turned to a hurricane,

By the shattered soul upon the floor.

The wreckage the only relief for the misery.

Joy only a scene in a movie of the past.

Never to be relived.

Only witnessed on the moving picture screen.

Happiness nevermore.

Life's a Game

Life is a game you can't quit.

Control your fate blindly.

Never give up.

Never stop fighting the good fight.

As long as it's something worth fighting for.

If you've found nothing you're a quitter,

And the game ends at the end of this turn.

What's it going to be?

Right to the path of life?

OR left to the dead end?

The game begins when you decide what fate to choose.