Happiness Nevermore

The loving hopeless romantic of an optimistic heart,

That once was.

Has now become the broken life,

Of an untrusting cynic heart.

Turned to stone by the pain,

Reflected in the eyes of the storm.

Just starting rain once long ago.

Now turned to a hurricane,

By the shattered soul upon the floor.

The wreckage the only relief for the misery.

Joy only a scene in a movie of the past.

Never to be relived.

Only witnessed on the moving picture screen.

Happiness nevermore.

Life's a Game

Life is a game you can't quit.

Control your fate blindly.

Never give up.

Never stop fighting the good fight.

As long as it's something worth fighting for.

If you've found nothing you're a quitter,

And the game ends at the end of this turn.

What's it going to be?

Right to the path of life?

OR left to the dead end?

The game begins when you decide what fate to choose.

How to Say It

How to say those three words.

They change your life forever.

Hard to breath heart races hand shake.

Words stick in your throat on the tip of your tongue.

Terrified to say it.

Most important three words of your life.

They'll suffocate you if you don't get them out.

What happens if you say them?

Here it goes...

Those three words:

Of I love you

New World

New life, new world.

This age of 17,

Early graduate.

One foot in the adult world,

One chained in the realm of children.

It feels all responsibility and no play.

Does it get easier?

Everything feels of a contradiction...

Told to be an adult and treated like a child.

Reminded every day,

18 is still five months away.

What happens then?

Is it an automatic transition?

Another new world,

For a girl who is not an adult,

But not quite a kid anymore.

Lover's Cry For Him

How do you let go when you see forever?

She loves him,

Doesn't want to let go.

But she has too.

There's no way for this to work.

She knows deep down that he loves her.

He knows it too.

She also knows he needs to express it.

He pushed her out the door whether he knows it or not.

She needs him to know she won't ever let go.

But it's a secret,

A burden she bares.

He has to find it out for himself.

He needs to know how to show her he loves her,

He cares.

Be the sappy romantic she sees in her mind.

He knows how to keep her.

Hopefully he remembers she'll always love him,

She can't be with him right now.

She'll always be his.

Fate or Trickery?

All I see is you.

Whether I close my eyes,

Open them to take a look,

It's always you in my periphery.

But what does it mean?

Is it a sign?

Will you disappear?

Come home to me?

Or is this just my insanity?

Will I wake tomorrow to find you in my bed?

Find you off to run away?

Or find you no where but my head?

What does it mean that you,

This maybe reality is all I ever see?

Is this my fate?

Is this trickery?

It's Over

This time it's over.

I'm done,

I can't do it.

This time I refuse,

I won't pretend it's all okay.

I've been pushed over the edge far too many times.

I give up.

I quit and walk away for good.

Show me you love me,

Meaning ignore me?

Something I never understood.

Guess you'll lose me.

Question is,

Will that be to keep me or permanently?