I Am Who I Am

You can Judge me all you want.

I don't care,

You are the reason why I don't do my make up or my hair.

I don't give a fuck what people think.

You can accept that,

Accept me for exactly who and what I am

Or you can fuck off and let me be.

I change for no one and that is a fact.

So you can say what you want behind my back.

At the end of the day,

I'm still here,

I'm still me.

if I change,

I do it for me.

I may not be an old dog,

But I refuse to learn your new tricks.

I am the way I am because I love the person I have become.

So accept that I won't change,

And judge me all you want,

You are just wasting your breath.

If I Were

If I were alone would you keep me company?
If I were broken would you try to fix me?
If you didn't succeed would you keep trying until you did succeed?
If I were fucked up to the point they'd lock me up forever would you help me save myself?
If I had a shattered past would you make my future brighter?
If I didn't know what love was would you show me?
If I had to hide the real me would you love the part I always hide?
If I didn't know what it was like to know what it's like to have someone that cares would you be the one to care for me?
If I was everything you ever wanted would you leave me?
If I loved you but didn't know how to show you would you step up and tell me you loved me first?
Would you mean it?
If I fucked up but knew what I did wrong and how to fix it would you leave me?
If knew you were all I ever wanted would I be the one you want inside?
Are you lying?
Promise?
Swear?

Home and the Heart

I've always heard that home is where your heart is.
What they failed to mention is that it's more than that.
Yes, home is where your heart is but it's also the one place you feel the most safe.
It is the place where you can be yourself.
The place where you get the acceptance you need.
Where you have loved ones that call you family,
The ones you call family in return.
The place you are so comfortable being that you don't ever want to leave.
Home is the one place you say "I love it here. I could stay here forever."
And mean it.
Home is your comfort zone,
Your safehaven.
Home is the one place that makes you feel complete.

Mask

I'm sick of lies,
I'm tired of hiding the pain,
Tired of being the one behind the mask.
I want to burn the mask and run,
Or hide and pretend the pain doesn't exist.
i just want it to go away.
When they ask if I'm okay,
I want to scream and evaporate.
They say it's okay.
They say they understand what I'm going through,
That I'm not the only one going through it all,
But do they?
Do they really understand?
No, I honestly dont think they do...

Vulnerability

What made you think I would show you vulnerability?
What made you think I'd crack?
I loved you and you broke my heart.
So why the hell would I trust you with it again?
Why Would I even dare to trust you with my secrets and my heart again?
You fucked up so here I go.
To hide behinde my invisible shield forever.
My heart and love never again accessible.

Get the Truth

Get the truth out of me

Before I die

Look me in the eye

And tell me not to lie.

You say I couldn't care less

But the opposite is true.

You've known me for years

Yet it's like you don't know me at all.

How?

How could you know me for so long

But never know the truth?

The truth is that I'm still in love with you

And that will never change.

Even though I know you will never feel the same for me again.

Forgiven

Who knew that forgiveness can be found anywhere?

Even when its nothing you deserve...

Guess that means the person you hurt cares for you too much to leave even when you don't deserve what they've done for you.

Or do they do it for themselves?

For you Both?

If you are forgiven but not left then well...

That's true love right there.